in heels, im a walking disaster, in converse, im a ballerina.

HEY GUYS, remember wen i posted that journal bout my new bf? ya, well now he my ex-bf. i fuckin hate him. he such a jack ass.  he dumped me cuz i wouldnt fuck him, we've only been goin out 4 like 2 months, maybe.  ima kick his ass.  the sad thing is, i still love the stupid mother fucker.

ok, so i met this really hot asian guy.  i know that sounds weird, but trust me he was hot, his name is Allan.  i liked him alot so i decided 2 flirt a little and see what happened.  so, we had been hanging out 4 2 days and i was constantly flirting, and he didnt seem 2 mind either, i thought maybe he was flirting a little 2.  but, then i went 2 the bowling alley, with my freind, and i saw him there holding hands with his girlfreind, they were all over each other, and i felt like such an idiot.  the next day when he talked 2 me i felt like hurling a very sharp object at his chest!!! ugh, i hate life.

i just dumped my bf!!! hes an ass!!!and thats it!!!bye

i broke up with myBF 3hrs ago.  he then called me @ 10:00 at night so we could talk.  we fixed everyting amd we;re ok now.  i really dont think i could live without him.  i just hope he keeps his promises, and doesnt keep doing the idiotic shit that tore us apart.  i also fixed my bff's relationship w/ her BF.   i lov myself(right now), but it probably wont last long.  everything is finally back in balance 4 the time being.
                                lov,
                                        brittany  

"Miss Murder"

Hey Miss Murder can I?
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Make beauty stay if I,
Take my life?

Whoa-oh-ohh

With just a look they shook
And heavens bowed before him.
Simply a look can break your heart.
The stars that pierce the sky;
He left them all behind.
We’re left to wonder why
He left us all behind.

Hey Miss Murder can I?
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Make beauty stay if I,
Take my life?
Whoa-oh-ohh
(ohh)

Dreams of his crash won’t pass
Oh, how they all adored him
Beauty will last when spiraled down.
The stars that mystify
He left them all behind.
And how his children cried
He left us all behind.

Hey Miss Murder can I?
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Make beauty stay if I,
Take my life?
Whoa-oh-ohh

What's the hook, the twist
Within this verbose mystery?
I would gladly bet my life upon it.
That the ghost you love, your ray of light
Will fizzle out without hope.
We're the empty set just floating through, wrapped in skin
Ever searching for what we were promised.
Reaching for that golden ring we'd never let go,
but who would ever let us put put our filthy hands upon it?

Hey Miss Murder can I?
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Make beauty stay if I,
Take my life?
Whoa-oh-ohh

Hey Miss Murder can I?
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Make beauty stay if I,
Take my life?
Whoa-oh-ohh

he makes me so fucking angry.  i want to shoot him right now, oh wait, i cant. . . he's in florida.  he hasnt called me, he keeps rejecting my calls, he wont listen to my messages, and hes really pissing me off.  i want to scream, cry, yell, hurt him, kiss him.  GOD!!!!  no matter what he does or how mad i get, i just keep on loving his sorry ass, and wanting him to be with me.  im HOPELESS!!  i dont know what to do right now, ima dump his adorable face if he doesnt stop ignoring me.  and to make things so much worse i keep hearing that song by Hinder, "better then me," and it makes me wanna cry, til the fucking world comes to a mother fucking end.  im gonna shoot myself!